A few weeks ago I blogged about having too many creative ideas, but with no clear direction to take.
This past week, depression settled in as well two severe migraine attacks sapped the energy to do anything out of me.
It’s been a long winter thus far. I’ve been pretty much house-bound since late November, and it is starting to wear me down.
For those of you who may not know, I “retired” from the workforce two years ago (I’m only 46) due to a progressive disability (Usher Syndrome). Because of this disability, I’m unable to drive. We moved to a rural area north of Grand Forks, North Dakota. Rural in that I am at least 15 miles from the closest town, and closest neighbor over a mile away. There is public transportation which I use on a weekly basis so that’s been good. But with no friends or church (yet), I’ve been pretty isolated and alone most of the time (outside my family).
I hope to change this once Spring finally arrives.
Anyhoo, with all this “free” time on hand, believe it or not, I have NOT been very productive with ANYTHING. In fact, I got more things (including writing) done back when I was working full-time.
Funny. When I worked, I used to dream about being home and writing full-time. Now that I’m in that situation, I’m finding it difficult to focus.
Anyone have this experience?
I’m wondering if I set up a schedule, would I stick to it?
Bottom line, I’ve noticed a trend since I left the workforce, and it’s disturbing as I really don’t want to admit it.
I lack self-discipline.
There, I said it.
Now, just need to figure out the accountability part.