This poem was prompted by a “moon” theme over at @storysaturday on Twitter.
This poem was prompted by a “moon” theme over at @storysaturday on Twitter.
As she walks across the meadow she could almost hear the voices of past lives echoing through the sparsely forested terrain; with the breeze caressing her body, their faint howling cries icing her to the core with haunting images of despair and betrayal.
*Inspired by article, Site of Deadliest Native American Massacre Identified in Idaho
The ocean water
oh so blue and clear…but
when she peers down into
the salty sea
the last thing she’d see
are those black, doll eyes
before the bench where he last saw her
Shadows from nearby trees nearly engulfing it
as the sun lowered in the smoke-glazed sky
She had on her gray pantsuit with a silky blouse
its’ color matched her sea-blue eyes
He set the ash-covered helmet on the wood
and as if pressed down with a heavy weight, he dropped
to one knee and bowed his head, tears trickling down his grime-stained face
Fires he could fight, but not the monstrosity he witnessed on that fateful day
One by one, his brothers fell as with the towers
Did she too?
Perhaps she’ll suddenly appear like an angel he knew her to be-
or, was she lost somewhere in the rubbles of mangled steel and crushed cement?
Time’s no man’s friend
For he was a fool to think he had plenty
and now she’s gone
*I created a video for this story. It can be accessed here: The Bench
“Everyone must leave something behind when he dies, my grandfather said. A child or a book or a painting or a house or a wall built or a pair of shoes made. Or a garden planted. Something your hand touched some way so your soul has somewhere to go when you die, and when people look at that tree or that flower you planted, you’re there.
It doesn’t matter what you do, he said, so long as you change something from the way it was before you touched it into something that’s like you after you take your hands away. The difference between the man who just cuts lawns and a real gardener is in the touching, he said. The lawn-cutter might just as well not have been there at all; the gardener will be there a lifetime.” – Ray Bradbury, Fahrenheit 451
(*YouTube Tuesday idea originally came from the Martians Attack blog)
A secret dream of mine is wanting to see one of my works produced into a feature film. I just love the thought of seeing my story come to life with visuals and music. Well, I decided not to wait any longer and began creating my own “films” by using the movie-making software, Kizoa. Yeah, it’s not quite the same as having actors acting out parts of the stories I’ve written, but it’s close enough and not to mention, fun!
Here’s the most recent one I created for a microfiction I wrote, The Bench.
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As she stood in the entryway
staring at the black mass in the fiery sky
what good did technology do for them
now on the brink of extinction?
Gusts of heated air whipped around her body
as the only thoughts of comfort
were of all the written journals
she’d buried in the deep caverns nearby
in the hope that those pieces of her would survive
while the rest be reduced to nothing
but hot ashes
A young woman who lost her parents, one to infidelity and the other to a war in some foreign land, must choose between a childhood dream and her familial responsibility…real life sucks.
This month’s question: Did you ever say “I quit”? If so, what happened to make you come back to writing?
I wrote an essay on this last year, and today I took and created a video from it.
The cross on a grave site signaled peace at long last for one man; but, for the woman it meant that her nightmare has just begun.
He knew you don’t have to be brothers by blood when you’ve bled together as you faced the demons of the earth where even death can’t sever the unbreakable bond of brotherhood.
He wanders through the vast marshes searching for the corporeal home he knows he’ll never see again.
She hurt all over. Inside and out.
She wore no shoes against the jagged rocks on the trail, and no jacket against the skin-biting cold of the late autumn air. She had run away so quickly there was no time to grab anything.
The pain in her chest throbbed as she tried to ignore it. She hated feeling this way. It was a nagging reminder of all she had lost.
She stumbled on as she kept her back to the destruction that lay behind. Black smokes rose to the sky as the putrid smell of burnt flesh permeated her nostrils. Bile burned in her stomach as she covered her cracked lips with a dirt-streaked hand.
Images and thoughts tried to force themselves into her mind, but she shook them away. No, she couldn’t face them now. They would break her into a million of pieces, pieces that she could never put back together.
A snarled tree root suddenly snagged a foot as she tripped and fell to her knees with a whimper. The impacted skin burned, and something warm trickled down that foot.
She brushed the once golden-brown-now-mud-caked hair away from her pale face, and stared down at herself. The left pant-leg now torn which exposed her ankle completely. There was a gash on the top of her foot where blood oozed from. As she sat on the icy, hard ground, she debated with herself on whether she should bother to continue. With an injured foot, she’d either be an easy prey, or die from an infection.
Stifling back the urge to scream, she pounded the earth with both fists. Hot tears blinded her as her teeth ground together.
Life was so unfair! What had she done to deserve such a cruel fate? What?!
The snapping of nearby branches startled her as she sat up and peered ahead. All she saw was a thick canopy of dark hardwood trees. A moment later though there were several shadows moving within them.
The predators have found their prey.
“N-no!” She rolled over on her knees and stood up. She then scanned around but realized that it was too late to run. She reached down and grabbed a sharp-edged rock.
Ignoring the burning pain, she faced the wavering shadows as they neared. Her nails dug into the rock as she fought to steady her panting.
Would death come quickly for her? Or would they take their time as they tortured her?
She tried to swallow but discovered that her mouth had become parched as she licked her chapped lips, and tasted blood.
The awning of the trees closed in as roaring filled her head. With her other hand, she pressed against her temple.
She couldn’t pass out now!
The sound of a horse’s neigh roused her back to full consciousness as she turned towards the source, and sucked in her breath.
The high stature of the animal clopped towards her. Its brown coat shiny with sweat and rain water. A figure sat on it, draped in a long, black coat. Her eyes moved up the muddied black boots, black pants, and finally to the face which stayed hidden behind the hood.
“State your name.” A deep male voice spoke.
Her body began to tremble, but she forced herself to stand tall and steady. “I’m called Traviata.” Her words barely came out in a hoarse whisper. Her hand gripped the rock tighter.
The hooded figure turned its head towards the smoke-laden sky above her. “State your crime.”
“Crime?” Vivid memories of her past life filled her mind. “The only crime I’ve committed is by being born!” She couldn’t hold the pain and rage back any longer as she threw the rock, and it smashed against the back of the black figure. The explosive movement caused her to fall forward as she landed hard on her knees and hands. There she stayed as she allowed the tears to flow freely down her face.
Unmoved, the low voice asked again, “Your crime?”
Without raising her head, Traviata answered, “For being me. That’s my crime.”
“You were forced out of your home?”
“Yes, by my own family!” Her chest heaved. “A-abandoned. They burned the house and my cats!” She needed to get it all out. “Why? For what? For not being like them, normal? For choosing my own path and not theirs?” She shook her head. “Why? I don’t know why — they couldn’t accept me as me. And somehow that became my crime.”
Several moments of silence passed as she continued to stare down at the gray earth. She expected pain to come at any time. She prayed that the end would be swift.
The leather from the saddle creaked, and then a loud thud sounded when a pair of boots hit the hard ground.
“Traviata.” The tone now soft, kinder.
She hesitated before glancing up. The figure now stood before her, exposed. The golden-brown eyes that adorned a youthful face squinted as a smile spread across his lips. He held out a hand to her. “Stand, please.”
Traviata exhaled and then reached for the hand. The man pulled her gently up.
“You are a jewel. Rare and precious.” His face radiated benevolence behind the smile as he continued to hold her hand. “Come with me and leave your old life behind.”
She blinked at him, and then smiled back.
Rob gripped the steering wheel as he watched a brown leaf roll across the gray hood. His haggard face covered with salt and pepper beard helped conceal the white scar across his right cheek. He stared ahead as he half-listened to the car radio.
“The President is expected to address the nation tonight for the final time.” The radio garbled. “Before leaving with his family to an undisclosed location.”
He leaned over and changed the stations.
“CDC still have no answers as to what is causing the flu-like pandemic, nor are they any closer to an effective vaccine or treatment…”
“With the death toll skyrocketing across the country and hospitals completely overwhelmed with the sick, medical personnel are urging everyone to stay indoors in hope of slowing down the spread…”
“Ten more police officers gunned down by looters as they struggle to protect the civilians still in the downtown area…”
The radio went silent when Rob opened the door. He didn’t bother to close it as he staggered into the expansive cemetery. Shadows lurked everywhere yet his own moved with each faltered step. His shoulders slumped forward as he buried both hands deep in the pockets of the ragged trench coat.
He passed rows and rows of old and broken stones until he approached a mangled oak tree. He stooped over a particular headstone, half-buried in yellowed grass. He pulled his right hand out and pressed it on top of the cold stone.
Born March 3, 1972-Died November 12, 2010
Born April 15, 2008-Died November 10, 2010
He bowed his head, eyes closed. “Jules…three years, Jules.”
He stood still for several moments. A dark lock of hair fell over his left eye as his lips quivered. Rob then deliberately reached into the right pocket, and pulled out a pistol.
“I’m so tired of just surviving.” He mumbled as he shifted the weapon to his left and then back to the right hand. “Everyone’s gone.” He pressed the trigger back. “I don’t want to be alone anymore.” And raised the gun towards his temple.
He suddenly paused midway when the branches of the nearby tree swayed and creaked. A breeze swept over his thin body as his hazel eyes searched each and every stone.
“Jules?” His voice shook.
Everything grew still. Including the shadows.
Rob sucked in a trembling breath as he extended the free hand into the left pocket, and extracted a tarnished, gold-colored pocket watch. He used the thumb to flip the lid open.
“7:15.” He whispered.
He blinked several times. There was something engraved in the lid as he continued to stare at it.
79 S 30 W
A smile slowly spread across his lips. “Dad, you son of a b–” He chuckled as he snapped the lid shut, and dropped the watch back into the pocket.
Rob leaned against the headstone as he pushed the trigger back down.
“There’s something I need to do, Jules.” He muttered with excitement. “I’ll be back to…” His voice trailed off when he turned around.
A piece of wood slammed against the side of his head, and he instantly slumped to the ground. As he lied in a heap, his eyes remained open.
They saw nothing.
A murky shadow moved across the earth and enveloped the body, and lifted the watch out of the pocket.
“Whatcha got, Jim?” A scrawny girl in a tattered dress appeared next to the corpse.
The male teen’s crooked smile revealed two missing front teeth as he grasped the ticking object in his grimy hand. “Lunch!”
(First published with Asylum Ink on April, 11th 2014)
As a writer, I am also a lover of music and movies. I will run an Iconic Series featuring various musicians/songs/films that I love, and which ones I deemed as being iconic of the times. To start off I like to focus on the 1970s and one of the most iconic songs of that decade has to be “The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald.”
It’s a legendary and tragic tale, second most known of all shipwrecks behind the Titanic. “The Edmund Fitzgerald was lost with her entire crew of 29 men on Lake Superior November 10, 1975, 17 miles north-northwest of Whitefish Point, Michigan.” (Reference taken from the Shipwreck Museum website) Gordon Lightfoot, a Canadian singer, wrote and performed this ballad which created an even more (world-wide) interest in this iconic ship.
This quote says it best:
“The unrecorded past is none other than our old friend, the tree in the primeval forest which fell without being heard.” –Barbara W. Tuchman
Who wants to go through this life, and then pass on without being remembered? I don’t think anyone desires to be forgotten. What better way to carry on your legacy than to leave a written record of your time on this world?
What about you? How does this quote speak to you?
With today being the 400th anniversary of Shakespeare’s death, I want to honor him with one of my favorite poems that he wrote.
“All the world’s a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse’s arms.
Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress’ eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon’s mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.”
What is your favorite Shakespeare’s poem or play?
Ever had a time during your life when writing (or whatever your artistic passion is) has become incompatible with reality?
It sucked, didn’t it?
I hope that like anything else, this only lasted for a season and that you were able to go back to it.
I went through my “incompatible” period not too long ago.
Two years ago actually.
Hubby was unemployed but in college working towards a formal science degree. I was the only one working full-time (in the banking industry). My vision was deteriorating, but I somehow managed to put in over 40 hours each week while suffering from terrible eye strains and painful migraines. I had a young son, and a house to also take care of. Whenever I tried to sit down to write, hubby or son always needed me for something. Or, if I spent “too much time” writing, hubby would complain that my priorities were to my family and job since I wasn’t making any money with writing.
Then, my father became ill with an aggressive lung disease. I would allot whatever free time I had to spend time with him.
It was during this period of my life when I had to choose between “reality” and writing.
Writing had to be put away. I felt like I’d lost a piece of myself for doing so; but, still the choice had to be made.
My Dad passed away a short time afterwards. Hubby graduated from college with honors, and is now working full-time as a federal employee. And I’m “retired” from the workforce, and am home full-time.
With these now behind me, I have ample time to write again.
It’s difficult to open your heart when its been broken time and time again.
The first time I remember having it broken was losing my best friend and cousin, Darren. We were born one month apart. Playmates at a young age; but things began to change when we were about six. He kept falling down, and needed help getting up. Next thing I knew he was in a wheel chair. A few years later, bed-ridden with all manner of machines hooked into him to help his body keep functioning. Then, he was gone. Dead just shy of our fourteenth birthdays.
He had Duchene Muscular Dystrophy.
It was at a young age when I learned that we don’t live forever; that our bodies were fragile. Mortal. And that death was a very real thing.
Parents are supposed to be our protectors. Not just for our physical safety, but of our emotional well-being. But, even parents are humans…flawed…scarred…and their own hurtful pasts can sometime hurt the ones they loved the most. As a child, it was hard to see this though; especially when one of them continuously tore you down with damaging words, that you’re not good enough, that you were at fault for their current troubles, and that you don’t deserve anything except pain and hell. That same parent would continue to pound and belittle until they get the desired outcome…tears.
Hence, I learned to associate tears with being weak.
When I was seventeen, our family’s true matriarch, my surrogate mother and emotional rock as a child, my Grandmother, passed away of Emphysema.
Once in college, I turned my focus to hopes and dreams of a better, brighter future; however, at the age of twenty-one, I learned I was going blind. As a result, I gave up on my dreams.
Two years later, I met and married Aaron. I thought that perhaps my life will start to turn for the better; I was wrong. Less than two years later, he died as a result of a car accident.
Twenty years ago today. And I can still remember the events of that fateful day as if they just happened. The heart never forgets no matter how hard you try to push it away.
Unfortunately, this wasn’t the last of my losses.
I remarried three years later. He was my best friend from college who knew of my emotional scars, my hopes and dreams, my anger…everything. Over four years into our marriage, I was nearly eight months pregnant, he began to have growing issues with breathing. He went to our family doctor who ran a series of tests on him. Next thing we knew, he was being transported to the hospital. His diagnosis: Pericarditis. They admitted him, and immediately performed an emergency operation to drain the fluid that had its death grip around his heart. But, that wasn’t the end of it. Doctors were unsure if this was viral or bacterial. Bacterial would require a heart transplant. So, while they ran further tests, they pumped antibiotics into his body. It would be days before we’d learned that it was viral, not bacterial.
Ever since this event, intimacy has been an issue with me.
Five years after our son was born, I became pregnant again; only to lose that baby.
My latest loss? My Dad who passed away less than two years ago from an aggressive lung disease. He was only sixty-seven.
Now, I realize that death is a normal part of living. The same goes for pain. But there comes a point though when one suffers so much of both that they shut down emotionally to try and protect what’s left of their heart and soul. The problem is that I have placed such a tight lid on my emotions, I don’t know how to open it.
The real question though- Do I really want to open it?